Let’s Go!

Be careful what you ask God.

I “made the mistake” of asking Him to lead me to a deeper spiritual level. Twelve hours later, I had an unexpected teleconference call with my employer over some recent developments. It quickly became contentious and led me to reevaluate my entire relationship with them. Over the next few days, it led to a series of exchanges that got increasingly uglier until I pulled out the Library of Colorful Metaphors.

Yes, I cussed him out. And yes, I was fired. And I’d do it again.

I’m not going to say that my last three years were completely wasted. I got to work with a crew of amazing people. Broken people have come to a place of healing. There were some creative and challenging musical and ministry moments. The musicians and singers I recruited were respected and honored as part of the community. There was one particular project that was finally starting to find its groove when Auntie Rona came to town and threw everything out the window.

Still. My employers weren’t who I thought they were. And I wasn’t the person they wanted me to pretend to be.

(For the record, God, I meant a richer, more fulfilling prayer life. What the hell is this shit supposed to be?) My best guess is that God’s truth – no matter how painful – is still better than the most pleasant delusion. It doesn’t make it any easier.

So… What’s next? No. Fucking. Clue.

Let’s Go!

Yes, I know. I should clean up this website and all my online profiles, assume this air of “professionalism”, make myself as nonobjectionable as possible, spend 12+ hours a day harassing my networks, and promote myself nonstop lining up interviews left and  right until I break through.

And yet… I’m done. I have no intention of ever placing myself in a position like that again. As far as where that is going to lead me, I don’t know. I’ll figure it out when I get there. And if I don’t, so be it. At this point, I have no more years of my life to waste. I’ll go out however I go out, but it will be on my own terms.

So… What does this mean?

This may come as a shock, but – well – I actually do know a few things. Very well, as a matter of fact. Right now, there are projects I’m working on and things that I’m learning. It has never been difficult to find things to work on, especially at my age. I’ll worry about my own career (or lack thereof) and income.

At this point, I’m moving on.

-TKP
6/29/20

6 Comments

  • Erin Landers

    June 29, 2020 at 6:23 pm Reply

    Kareem, you are my hero

    • KareemPowell

      June 29, 2020 at 10:17 pm Reply

      Thank you, Erin!

  • Susan

    June 29, 2020 at 6:45 pm Reply

    Sometimes my prayers sound very similar with the same colorful language! I feel as though I connect more with people who pray those prayers of desperation (WTF, GOD?!) moreso than I do with people who pray the mundane, churchy, cookie-cutter prayers! No matter…I’m praying for you! Pray for me?? 🙏🏼👑😻

    • KareemPowell

      June 29, 2020 at 10:17 pm Reply

      Don’t you know it! I’d rather someone be raw and honest than cultivating a fake image.

      And you KNOW I’m praying for you!

  • Tiffany Lopez

    June 29, 2020 at 9:53 pm Reply

    Come on and
    Ease on down, ease on down the road
    Come on, ease on down
    Ease on down the road
    Don’t you carry nothing
    That might be a load
    Come on, ease on down
    Ease on down the road
    Come on, ease on down, ease on down the road
    Come on, ease on down, ease on down the road
    Don’t you carry nothing
    That might be a load
    Come on, ease on down, ease on down, down the road
    Pick your left foot up
    When your right foot’s down
    Come on legs keep movin’
    Don’t you lose no ground
    You just keep on keepin’
    On the road that you choose
    Don’t you give up walkin’
    Cause you gave up shoes, no
    Ease on down, ease on down the road
    Come on, ease on down
    Ease on down the road
    Don’t you carry nothing
    That might be a load
    Come on, ease on down
    Ease on down the road
    Cause there maybe times
    When you think you lost your mind
    And the steps you’re takin’
    Leave you three, four steps behind
    But the road you’re walking
    Might be long sometimes
    You just keep on steppin’
    And you’ll just be fine, yeah
    Ease on down, ease on down the road
    Come on, ease on down
    Ease on down the road
    Don’t you carry nothing
    That might be a load
    Come on, ease on down
    Ease on down the road
    Well there maybe times
    When you wish you wasn’t born
    And you wake one morning
    Just to find your courage’s gone
    But just know that feeling
    Only last a little while
    You stick with us
    And we’ll show you how to smile, yeah
    Get ’em up, goin’ down, ease on down
    Get ’em up, goin’ down, ease on down
    Get ’em up, goin’ down, ease on down
    Get ’em up, get ’em up ease on down

    • KareemPowell

      June 29, 2020 at 10:18 pm Reply

      GAAAAAAAAH!!!! That song is stuck in my head!

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